My day started so well , work was fine - same routine but went smoothly I went home on time ... I reached home feeling very light hearted and carefree ...Sun was shining and it feels so right to face the past that's haunting me for couple of months HEART BROKEN but I felt it's time to find closure. I decided to have a talk and just to unload and clear up the feelings to be totally free. I drove up to Alcester to see Will, at first he doesn't want to talk to me at all but in the end he open the door, I'm only asking for 5 mins to talk, he treats me like a child, tries to throw me out but I insist we need to talk ,its the worse time ever of my life being maltreated , manhandled like that.. The very first time I see in his eye, a look of enraged- giving me an evil look , it seems that his under a spell of evilness, he looks in a state with blood shut eye I can honestly say he looks unkept, he looks so miserable. I look around the house it looks a mess clothes everywhere, I used to call him OCD he likes tidying up it annoys him even just a little mess, it feels that his not totally himself, he looks terribly awful ..... Suddenly I felt the pain on my arms where he held me for sure there'll be a big bruised the morning after. Why people don't want to talk .... Talk to clear things up ... The last time we had a talk I was on denial I didn't want to accept what's happening, my mind was so narrow I just wanted to leave ...but these time I come to realise its time to move on.... The bad treatment he gave me I was suddenly woken up, there's no point to talk .. I didn't want another second to see his face ... He almost throw me by the stairs I was petrified I thought his gonna kill me or push me down the stairs ... That very moment my mind says its time to go ..... Go as far as I can, away from him .... As I walked away a heavy feeling slow lifting away from my heart, it felt unreal but I felt that I'm FREE..... In that 5-10 minutes encounter I see his TRUE COLOURS. I thank God he wakes me up from my nightmare and brings me back to REALITY.. NOW IM FREE.
Anneklien
6/6/2014
